Beyond Dissappointment

If I were one to openly use expletives.....I would insert several here. But that probably isn't appropriate so I will try to use proper terms. As previously mentioned I have been training pretty religiously for my first (and likely last) Half Iron distance triathlon. It was a physically grueling, emotionally draining and psychologically challenging program. I had only hopes of actually being able to accomplish my goal in the beginning. Until Monday the week of the race. I swam a mile with relative ease, ran 10 miles and felt great. I was stoked. I finally felt like finishing this thing was a possibility. That night I got a late night call from my training partner. It was cancelled. You're kidding, right?!?!?! There it was in my e-mail inbox....'Bear Lake Classic postponed'

By 'postponed' they meant cancelled. Forget about all your hard work, your training, the sacrifices of your family, overcoming your fears and pushing yourself to your limit. Forget about all those early morning rides, late night swims and running in between.

The worst part about it is tree was no reason given. Nobody took responsibility or even offered an explanation. No closure. I was ticked. Shocked. Sad. Tired. Ticked. And completely bummed.
I contemplated doing it anyway. I was too upset though. I know it sounds silly but I really wanted a medal. Not to show anyone or hang on my wall. Just because that would mean it was real. Proof to myself that I did it. There is one more half Iron distance Race in Las Vegas at the end of October. The issue is that I can't sustain that training. I spent ALL summer and I can't really justify keeping it up for 2 more months. We'll see though. I am having a really hard time letting go and moving on.